"no title#4" by Baran

As if it had never happened before, you caught me by neck, tight, I can not move, I am shocked as if it had never happened before, each time a new bewilderment, each time a new scent, deep in my nose I can feel the bulb burning, the strong scent covering me up, and you bring your little lips close to my ear, me all trembly and excited, is it going to be the end? Is your firm pressure on my neck and your strong scent as my veil going to be my last memories? Let me cling to my memories, but your presence is so strong that I can’t grasp them anymore, they are all out of reach, far away, hazy. And you whisper, as if you’ve never whispered before in my ears, more than words I feel your tone, and electricity runs through my spine as if I’ve never heard you whispering into my ears before. Your voice is so familiar, if it was not for the tightening arm around my neck I would say I hear it every day, I would say it is one of those voices that has been with me day and night for a long time, it’s hard to breathe, and you know that, you can probably feel my heart beat, or maybe my artery beating under your arm, the world is turning black, ever so slowly, I can’t resist you, I give in to the darkness which crawls into my eyes, it surrounds you so smoothly that if it was not for the tightening arm around my neck I would say it is mesmerizing, Ah little fear if I only knew one day you would grab me like this would I ever nurture you in my heart, but you caught me by surprise as if I had never been caught by surprise before, if I only knew your trembling limbs would one day encircle me with such a firm pressure would I ever let you play in my soul like a kid, as if I had never been suffocated before, Ah my dear little fear.